11:48 PM @fadimghari What is love?
There was zero chance I could have given a convincing answer to this question a little over a year ago. Today, as I sit in my cold, calm corner I realize there’s a whole other dimension of me. Yes, I have lost so much including myself but I realized that I am lucky to have experienced love in a totally different way. I have never imagined I would have to be around children all day long especially at my young age, instead I found myself not only around them but taking care of them, loving them, being scared for them, praying for them, not imagining my life without them..
Today, as we go through the tragedy of the century, and we lose child after child, I find myself attached a million times more to my little angels. I have reached a point to know all their little habits, their nasty little plans, their moments of weakness.. During this Gen-, I found myself sharing with them all sorts of emotions and continue to do so. Their accelerated heartbeats when a bomb falls nearby, the brightness of their eyes when they see a whole meal-like meal, their crazy happiness just for seeing me back around them after a long day trying to provide for them to survive… This made me stop to think: Who have I become?
In this Gen- I totally lost my reckless, twenty-something years old, wild, dreaming self and have turned into a family guy that melts to a child’s laugh and is ready to burn the world for a child’s tear. Even worse, I do not even complain, my heart was unlocked to another kind of love that gives me purpose and pushes me to be a better example to all these little angels around me that I love and cherish like my own. Pray for all of our beautiful children who forcibly grew up centuries old in a year. Pray for their safety and ours to continue to be around them to protect and provide for them. I am not yet a father but they are all my children.
Gaza Diaries: Children in Gen-
•Fadi Mghari
#children #love #gazadiaries #feelings #protection 
